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A journey to find peace: Best pancakes ever? ⇢

I think so, although this picture is not so attractive. Also, excuse the fact that the bottom one is burned. It’s early.

Apple cinnamon pancakes

1/2 cup plain nonfat Greek yogurt (I used chobani)

1/2 cup coarse bran

1/2 cup egg whites

1 small apple (I used golden delicious)

3/4 tsp baking powder

2-3g cinnamon

Combine the yogurt, bran, baking powder, and cinnamon in a bowl. Finely chop half of the apple and add to the batter. Cook however you usually cook your pancakes (there are different schools of thought and frankly I suck at cooking pancakes, so I’m not offering advice here), and serve garnished with the other half of the apple cut into chunks and some more cinnamon.

Nutritional info (for entire recipe): 268 calories, 48g carb, 1g fat, 28g protein, 16g fiber.

I hope these are sweet! I need some bran :)

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Frustration

I’m really sorry I have to be so negative again, but I don’t know what to do with myself. At school (or away from home) I’m too busy to have a huge appetite. Hunger passes because I simply don’t have the time to realize it. Lately, I’ve been at home, like a bum. I don’t have a job, I’m not taking summer classes anymore, and frankly, I don’t have friends who want to hang out with me. When I’m bored, I eat - and from the aggregate starvation of my last two months, I’ve been getting used to bingeing on huge amounts. My appetite is a crazy untamable beast, and even though I don’t eat junk food, or even slightly unhealthy food, the amount I eat is just sickening. I came home at a fairly acceptable weight of 105 (after starving for week - canvassing is hard work!) and now I’m at 110, a number that just will not budge. I’m so frustrated right now because the last few days I’ve been trying so hard to keep it under control. I’m sore from Insanity (hopefully at least some of the weight gain is new muscle), tired of running on the treadmill (45 minutes most days), and just sick of feeling hungry all the time even though I eat every 3 hours.

It’s so hard to look at my hipbones slowly disappearing. My thigh gap is pretty much nonexistent now, but I damn sure hope it’s due to all the plyo. Then, there’s my sister who eats whatever the hell she wants and calls me obsessed. Sorry, but you’d have a bit of a problem too if you were the chubby one and I were the one with the ideal fat distribution. Seriously, I have fucking AA boobs. All my fat goes to my stomach. WTH. Even when I was a chunky 127 pounds, my cup size was a small A at best. I’m so jealous of girls who have boobs. If I had decent B’s, with the same amount of fat on my body, then my stomach would probably be flat.

End rant. I’m so sick of looking at myself. I want to go on a fast to feel clean and new, but I can’t do it. I have projects to do and an interview tomorrow. Exercise and more restriction would probably burn more calories anyways.

On a positive note - having a slow metabolism SHOULD mean that I can get by with less food. I wish my appetite would realize that. Portion cutting continues.

(via s-0cietykills)

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Got that? It’s getting late: no more food for me.

(Source: brotips)

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If you gained 5 lbs in one day, it was due to a fluid shift, not fat gain. You would have to consume 17,500 calories to gain one pound of fat in a day.

Yeah :) a lot of poop and water! And a little bit of fat.

Time to count calories again.

I’m sorry for being so negative, but I need to get this out. I took a bit of a break from calories-counting since I was too busy to overindulge in the first place. Now I’m out of school, without a job, and without friends. I literally have nothing to do but sit on my ass all day and fill out online employment applications.

I admit to bingeing most of this week, having felt so deprived most of the time, but it’s getting worse. I don’t know what a real portion size is. I’m gaining weight and my mom is noticing how much time I spend in the kitchen. Food needs to stop taking over my brain. She told me the reason I can’t get good grades is because I spend too much time on food - this is somewhat true. I spend more time fixated on this issue than anyone else I know. I want to enjoy every bite, I want to create, and sometimes I will mindlessly eat until I physically feel nauseous. This addiction as got to stop, and I believe it naturally will when I find something that occupies me - namely, school, or a job, but I have a month to find productivity in my own home. A month to end this addiction.

“Do you still have room for more food?” asked my mom rudely, after calling the rest of the family down to eat. Thirty minutes prior, she witnessed me eating a salad with no dressing. This morning before she got up, she heard me eating my pre-run breakfast.

“You’re eating AGAIN?!”

Gluttony will be the end of me. Let the calorie-counting begin, since I obviously have nothing else to do with my life.

Pre-run: raw honey and vinegar water (60) + gummy vites (80) + plum (30) + apple (100) = 240
Post-run: blueberries (100) + whole grain rice and other random whole grains (200) + seaweed (30) + random sauteed vegetable (100?) + salsa (70) = 500
Lunch: grapefruit (200) + salmon (150) + salad (50) = 400
Snack: kabocha squash (200) + apple (50) + salad (50) + seaweed (30) + berries (70) = 400
Dinner: ???
Total so far: 1570
Running took off maybe 200-300, and I WILL do Insanity day 4 (100?). I can have 100 calories for dinner and then a small 50 calorie recovery snack.

Shit, that’s a lot of calories, and this is me restricting. Yeah, you don’t want to see me on a binge (3000-4000 calories?). Some binges just this past week: 20 squares of chocolate (10 pm), 12 granola bars (3 am), 4 yams (6 am), 3 cups of pistachios (sometime in the afternoon) - these are different days. The scary thing is, after the fullness subsides, I sometimes binge again. This is not good.

I feel fat.

This and last week I straight up binged without working out. This might just seem like a typical post, but whatever. I need to get it out of my system. HOW DOES ONE GAIN 5 POUNDS IN A WEEK. That’s freaking 3600 extra calories in a day. Wtf… guess my body’s fit for surviving famines -_-

New mission: occupy myself this summer. Too much free time = never leave kitchen.